MY OBS JOURNEY STARTS HERE...
On 9th June 2008,
I stepped onto the ground of Outward Bond Singapore. It is my first experience and I felt kind of excited. It had always been my dream to attend the OBS course. I knew 16 more friends including Jill, our instructor. My group name is Batuta which means “that stone” but at times people name us as Batutu which means “stone that”.
First day today and we did nothing much but I learnt something new, I learnt how to kayak. It’s my first attempt but was doing pretty well. I knew how to capsize too. After everything, went to wash up, followed by dinner, pitch tent, briefing, debrief, packing of stuffs and lights off. That’s the end of day 1.
F.Y.I we will be out of this campsite for the next 3days 2nights.
On 10th June 2008,
Carrying that heavy haversack, we continued our journey in OBS.
I am carrying a haversack consisting 2persons’ 3days 2nights clothings, toiletries, 2life vests and 2 ponchos. PLUS 4 2litres of water bottles. HEAVY !!!!
Today, we really walked a lot. Chatting while walking, walking while chatting, we finally reached our destination after about 2-3hours of walk including breaks. When we reached, we had some games and at about 5pm, we went to our campsite which is beside the sea to pitch tents. Followed by dinner. We didn’t get to bath as there is no water supply. If we need to use the ladies or gents, it will not be easy. For gents, they have to go to the sea. As for ladies, we had to go somewhere near the tree and cover ourselves with poncho. We had dinner, followed by briefing, debrief and a powder bath which I didn’t did it before. We just had to put the powder at out joints and that will be fine. It’s to prevent us from getting rashes and of course applying our dearest insect repellent. We, the Batuta members lied on the blue turp for some entertainments and off course to see stars. Me and my best partner, Gary was playing stone as well. At 10.30pm, the first sentry duty started and it is time for us to get back to our tents for our rest. While we were going back to our tents, dark clouds started to form and had covered the stars in the sky. A storm strikes, with thunder and lightings followed by a heavy downpour. Our tent were moving and our men were trying their best with all their might to hold onto the tent pole and to ensure the tent will not collapse. Our buddy group, Living Stone, their tents were destroyed by the storm and so, we invited them to our tent and everyone tried to hold on to the tent. The tents were all flooded with water and everyone were wet. After the storm, we went to help Living Stone with their tent. After the tent pitching, its already about 1am and everyone went back to sleep.
To me, its my first time experiencing all these storms. I did not expect it will be so bad. It is all about teamwork, if no teamwork shown, I believe our tent will collapse and we will not get to sleep that night. In this scene, everyone plays a part. Every different important role, I guess. Maybe we will get a nice rest after that as our tents are wet and stuffs, but to me, we learnt a lot that night and always know that, EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED.
On 11th June 2008,
After one tired night, we headed for breakfast and everyone noticed that we didn’t brush teeth. Anyway, after breakfast, we had our morning games. Half way through, dark clouds started to form again and it seems that Singapore is raining. There is a line cutting in between the sky of Singapore and Pulau Ubin. It looks scary to us. Our instructors told us to carry our faster and quickly get into the forest before the storm arrive. Before we got into the forest, it’s already raining, but we enjoyed the process though. Walking after one hour, we reached campsite2.
We were all drenched and we carried on with rafting. There is a lot of fun going on. Although our group is slow and didn’t win the race, but I saw the teamwork in Batuta. After rafting, we went to have our high elements.
Firstly, we tried out on belaying and carry on with rock climbing. For rock climbing, we had to earn for our own dinner. For rice and drinks, it cost each one of us 20 points each. For vegetable is 30 points and meat is 50 points. So, if we want to get full dinner, each one of us must get 120 points and my group had to get 1800 points in total. Ended up, Batuta got a score of 3700 points and we were all proud of it. Of course, I did improve in my rock climbing. Gary was the belayer of mine and he keep asking to climb as high as I could to earn for my own dinner. I was hanging there for a long time and finally I couldn’t take it and came down.
During dinner, it’s at cookhouse and finally, we need not cook our own food and we had a proper chair to sit and table to put our utensils for dinner. After dinner, me, Gary and PongPong helped to clean up the utensils while the guys help to dry and packed it into the cabinate.
With all these teamwork, we finished this work very quickly and all of us went to shower and meet Jill for briefing and debrief. After all the stuffs, we went to pack our stuffs for the sea expedition the next day. With that, goodnight buddy. All the best for tomorrow.
On 12th June 2008,
It is the last day and tomorrow, we will be heading back to Singapore. Kind of don’t wish. Today, we had our sea expedition. We need to kayak the whole of Pulau Ubin with the distance of about 18km. During the trip, I had fun and I am lucky to have a wonderful partner and not someone that is slack- thanks Gary.
I had never even dream that one day, I wll be out of the sea kayaking and also, not giving up. The two of us were motivating one another not to give up. Ended up, we were always faster then the navigator and always get scolded by him. Gary started to be unhappy about it and he told me to slow down. We had a short break as we were 2hours ahead of our target time and it is at the beach behind our NPCC ATC campsite. We had our lunch there and Gary thought me how to throw stone. After which, we went to the sea and play with water. About half an hour later, we set off and heading to our destination. We left only about 4km to reach campsite 2. this time round, me and Gary started off slowly as we don’t wish to get scolded by the navigator again. But we don’t know why, whenever the navigator saw us, he will always speed up and the people behind will start to blow their whistle and show him the slowing down signal. When he stopped, me and Gary just wanted to catch up with him but he ended up keep moving forward. And so, the back people get to pissed off and they started to block the navigator and called him ‘speed boat’. About half an hour later, we reached our destination and at that moment, my back is hurting.
After a while, we went for our Jetty Jump and I was thinking whether to jump not. Gary told me he will go down first and wait for me below. I shouted ‘I love Batuta!’ and I jumped down. It is very scary but fun at the same time. I could not believe that I will be able to jump down. After that we went to change and walk back to campsite 1. again, with that heavy haversack and the rod of bottles, chatting around and walked back to campsite 1. about an hour later, we reached. We packed our stuffs and we head to pitch our tents up. After tent pitching, we continue with dinner. Half way through, Gary got emotional out of the sudden and sat near the sea. I stood up and went towards him and sat down. He said nothing and went to cook his noodles and now it’s my turn to be emotional as I somehow miss home and mainland. We also learnt how to cook a dessert with apple, digestive biscuits crumbs and oat.
Went to shower, had briefing and debrief, off to bed. Heading back to Singapore tomorrow. Last night with you guys.
On 13th June 2008,
Friday the 13 2008, I made this statement, and I rang the bell ‘I must help YuYing NPCC sustain a gold unit!’ Luckily, I hit the bell and this will be my commitment. We made a Batuta web today and now, each of us had a twine with us. Got out photos, certificate, stuffs and heading back to Singapore. Waited for our turn and we reached Singapore at 1.45pm.
That will be the end of my 5days course in Outward Bound Singapore.
Own reflection
To me, although the course had ended, but this journey will never end. Everything we did in OBS will be able to apply to our real life’s journey. I am proud to say that I had carried that heavy haversack walking around for a few hours, think of giving up in the beginning but ended up pull it through. This is like our real life. Put this scene into our real life, we studied hard for exams and that’s where we are carrying that heavy haversack. Wanted to give up but didn’t. Reached the destination with pride and that’s where we got our good results. Everything we do be it easy or difficult. Don’t judge it by it’s look if you never even try it out. If there’s a will, there will be a of way doing it. When you made a statement, try doing it out, no matter how difficult it is, give in your best and I am confident to say, you are a great leader.
Don’t always expect things to turn out well and the road be prepared for you to walk. It should be we are the ones preparing our own roads for us to walk it through. Always remember, expect the unexpected. I had made my statement, and now its time for me to hold my whole unit’s hand, holding one another, working hand in hand and make my statement a success.
I will never forget all the things I learnt there.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
out of this whole world of guys,
i chose you , you as the one.
you had been drifting away from me.
why is that so ?
although i told you i decided to let you go but girl, it's not easy.
i will always be there by your side.
looking at you secretly,
taking of you secretly.
you are just that perfect in my eyes(although you aren't but i dont know why)
at times, you made me pissed off and fed-up,
i really feel like throwing tantrum at you,
but i didnt&ended up you throwing tantrum at me(i guess most girls had this too)
i tried to hate you, but i can't.
the time, the memories, is pulling me back.
we had fond of memories that can't be erased from my mind.
whenever i thought of it, tears will flow down.
the more i hope to give up &let go, the more i am hating that feeling.
you told me to be strong& hate you, but seriously SORRY ! i can't.
i know how much we are lovely once.
i know both of us are loving one another deep inside our heart but can't say anything out.
i know how you are feeling. i know how much hurt i have cause.i am sorry girl.
till now, you are still my dearest girlfriend..
no one will be able to replace you for this half years? or even more.
i really miss all those sweet talks, your hugs, your kisses.
i seriously miss all that.
think about it ,
had anyone love you so much before?
have you love anyone so deeply before ?
for me,
not to love her, will you ?
if i could turn back the time, i will still choose to appear in your life, but this time round,
i am going to grab you tight &will never never let you go. i swear !
no one except you will be able to unlock this heart of mine,
i love you
i chose you , you as the one.
you had been drifting away from me.
why is that so ?
although i told you i decided to let you go but girl, it's not easy.
i will always be there by your side.
looking at you secretly,
taking of you secretly.
you are just that perfect in my eyes(although you aren't but i dont know why)
at times, you made me pissed off and fed-up,
i really feel like throwing tantrum at you,
but i didnt&ended up you throwing tantrum at me(i guess most girls had this too)
i tried to hate you, but i can't.
the time, the memories, is pulling me back.
we had fond of memories that can't be erased from my mind.
whenever i thought of it, tears will flow down.
the more i hope to give up &let go, the more i am hating that feeling.
you told me to be strong& hate you, but seriously SORRY ! i can't.
i know how much we are lovely once.
i know both of us are loving one another deep inside our heart but can't say anything out.
i know how you are feeling. i know how much hurt i have cause.i am sorry girl.
till now, you are still my dearest girlfriend..
no one will be able to replace you for this half years? or even more.
i really miss all those sweet talks, your hugs, your kisses.
i seriously miss all that.
think about it ,
had anyone love you so much before?
have you love anyone so deeply before ?
for me,
not to love her, will you ?
if i could turn back the time, i will still choose to appear in your life, but this time round,
i am going to grab you tight &will never never let you go. i swear !
no one except you will be able to unlock this heart of mine,
i love you
Saturday, April 12, 2008
YES I AM WRITING ABOUT YOU.... BITCH !
whats the problem with you uh ?
why can't i kup your phone ?
who do you think you are to me ?
HELLO !
stop telling people that i keep contacting you &i will fall for you.OMFG!
please la for heaven sake !
GO HOME LOOK INTO THE MIRROR ON HOW YOU LOOK LIKE CAN ?
or is it that you are too broke to have one ?
I CAN GET YOU ONE !
fucking hell !
me&her broke up you very happy isit ?i guess so.
if you jealous... TOO BAD !LMAO!
its your problem.
stop saying all her bad stuffs infront of me &all my bad stuffs infront of her which all are not true. can?
i believe that we can settle our own problems, if not i am sure that it won't &will NEVER be you uh ?!
if you are too free &have nothing to do, don't come and bother us.
STOP ACTING kind hearted& nice bitch ! pui !
&please, i only called you once when i am really very sad that time.
stop going around telling ppl that when me &her have problems, i will ALWAYS call you.
&say that i am ALWAYS very irritating.
do you understand the word "ALWAYS"?
or you need me to help you define it clearly ?
i guess your english is not to that extend uh ?
dont throw you rpoly face okay?
just now when you called, you ask me why am i not sad right ?
everyone will grow up okay ?
i dont want to be sad is for her okay ?
dont later go around telling people that i dont love her anymore thats why when we broke up i am not sad. PLEASE !
seriously no point...
my heart is meant for her.
so far,
no one made me change my mind, no one made me fall for them.
so, you jolly well SHUT your BIG mouth UP !
if i heard anything from you, i tell you, it wont be nice anymore.
i dont care how old are you older then me.
i am already very good to you already, better dont climb up to my head okay ?!
DONT BE CHILDISH !
if me&jervin really love each other,
i believe we will trust each other even though we are not together anymore.
not in bgr but we CAN still be friend luh.
after all, our relationship is still not that bad can ?
get your fucking face out of my sight !
YES, I HATE YOU !!!
whats the problem with you uh ?
why can't i kup your phone ?
who do you think you are to me ?
HELLO !
stop telling people that i keep contacting you &i will fall for you.OMFG!
please la for heaven sake !
GO HOME LOOK INTO THE MIRROR ON HOW YOU LOOK LIKE CAN ?
or is it that you are too broke to have one ?
I CAN GET YOU ONE !
fucking hell !
me&her broke up you very happy isit ?i guess so.
if you jealous... TOO BAD !LMAO!
its your problem.
stop saying all her bad stuffs infront of me &all my bad stuffs infront of her which all are not true. can?
i believe that we can settle our own problems, if not i am sure that it won't &will NEVER be you uh ?!
if you are too free &have nothing to do, don't come and bother us.
STOP ACTING kind hearted& nice bitch ! pui !
&please, i only called you once when i am really very sad that time.
stop going around telling ppl that when me &her have problems, i will ALWAYS call you.
&say that i am ALWAYS very irritating.
do you understand the word "ALWAYS"?
or you need me to help you define it clearly ?
i guess your english is not to that extend uh ?
dont throw you rpoly face okay?
just now when you called, you ask me why am i not sad right ?
everyone will grow up okay ?
i dont want to be sad is for her okay ?
dont later go around telling people that i dont love her anymore thats why when we broke up i am not sad. PLEASE !
seriously no point...
my heart is meant for her.
so far,
no one made me change my mind, no one made me fall for them.
so, you jolly well SHUT your BIG mouth UP !
if i heard anything from you, i tell you, it wont be nice anymore.
i dont care how old are you older then me.
i am already very good to you already, better dont climb up to my head okay ?!
DONT BE CHILDISH !
if me&jervin really love each other,
i believe we will trust each other even though we are not together anymore.
not in bgr but we CAN still be friend luh.
after all, our relationship is still not that bad can ?
get your fucking face out of my sight !
YES, I HATE YOU !!!
WHAT A ASSUMING DAY...
today met up with erin to fetch you& you know what?
i skipped ballet...
reached airport at around 2plus and the both of us were like looking for the skytrain to proceed to T1.(we even took a map of changi airport)HAHAHAHA..
&finally belt23.
wait wait wait...
you didnt turn up.
you are such a stingy person that dont even send a msg saying you not coming back la.WTH !
&so we went to take cab &back to hougang for my tuition.(waste my time...)awww..
hmmm...i think you are on the plane already bah.
YES i miss you alot alot..
i want to see you, i wish to see you.
but on your side, do you wish?
do you wish to see me?
do you miss me as much as i miss you ?
i am worried...
today met up with erin to fetch you& you know what?
i skipped ballet...
reached airport at around 2plus and the both of us were like looking for the skytrain to proceed to T1.(we even took a map of changi airport)HAHAHAHA..
&finally belt23.
wait wait wait...
you didnt turn up.
you are such a stingy person that dont even send a msg saying you not coming back la.WTH !
&so we went to take cab &back to hougang for my tuition.(waste my time...)awww..
hmmm...i think you are on the plane already bah.
YES i miss you alot alot..
i want to see you, i wish to see you.
but on your side, do you wish?
do you wish to see me?
do you miss me as much as i miss you ?
i am worried...
Thursday, April 10, 2008
DECIDED...
i have decided,
decided to let go...
i have no more choice.
i have been upset for the past few days,
now i am much more better.
life still goes on for me.
its hard, its not easy but i have to overcome it.
at least i didnt regret being together with you as i had good times
&memories with you.
yes !
i agreed that i didnt expected that things will end it this way,
i guess you too.
i knew we both dont wish,
but we had no more choice but to let it go right baby?
i knew its hard to let you say those nasty
&hurting words to make me leave
&hate you,
i know that you are suffering on the other side of the world but you simply can't utter a word cause you can't let me know.
at this moment i know you cant be soft hearted,
thats why i had to respect your decisions and so,
we can be back to friends quick and we won't be suffering so badly like now,
right my dear?
SO,
i promise,
i wont be upset,
i wont be silly,
i will be back my old self,
i will just live the happy life again.(i guess thats what you wants to see right?)
i now then found out,
what matters more is what we gone through together but not really the ending.
everything will have an end sooner or later,
and its just the matter of how are we handling with all that isn't it?
i will draw a full-stop to everything now.
YES i love you.
&when you really love that person ,
the last thing you can do for that person is to let go..
i can't be the one taking care of you anymore,
so please take good care of yourself.
i can't be the one to be nagging at you anymore,
so please behave yourself.
i can't let you know that i love you anymore,
but that will be resounding in my mind.
i can't tell you how much i misses you anymore,
but my heart is missing you.
i hope i will be the first and the last girl to let you feel what is love.
i will always remember you &save the best for you.
i will never gonna to forget our love, our moments, our every single thing we did..
i hope you dont too..
lastly,
JERVIN NG, I LOVE YOU <3
JERVIN&JANICE...
13thJANUARY2007...
15MOTNHS...
i have decided,
decided to let go...
i have no more choice.
i have been upset for the past few days,
now i am much more better.
life still goes on for me.
its hard, its not easy but i have to overcome it.
at least i didnt regret being together with you as i had good times
&memories with you.
yes !
i agreed that i didnt expected that things will end it this way,
i guess you too.
i knew we both dont wish,
but we had no more choice but to let it go right baby?
i knew its hard to let you say those nasty
&hurting words to make me leave
&hate you,
i know that you are suffering on the other side of the world but you simply can't utter a word cause you can't let me know.
at this moment i know you cant be soft hearted,
thats why i had to respect your decisions and so,
we can be back to friends quick and we won't be suffering so badly like now,
right my dear?
SO,
i promise,
i wont be upset,
i wont be silly,
i will be back my old self,
i will just live the happy life again.(i guess thats what you wants to see right?)
i now then found out,
what matters more is what we gone through together but not really the ending.
everything will have an end sooner or later,
and its just the matter of how are we handling with all that isn't it?
i will draw a full-stop to everything now.
YES i love you.
&when you really love that person ,
the last thing you can do for that person is to let go..
i can't be the one taking care of you anymore,
so please take good care of yourself.
i can't be the one to be nagging at you anymore,
so please behave yourself.
i can't let you know that i love you anymore,
but that will be resounding in my mind.
i can't tell you how much i misses you anymore,
but my heart is missing you.
i hope i will be the first and the last girl to let you feel what is love.
i will always remember you &save the best for you.
i will never gonna to forget our love, our moments, our every single thing we did..
i hope you dont too..
lastly,
JERVIN NG, I LOVE YOU <3
JERVIN&JANICE...
13thJANUARY2007...
15MOTNHS...
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